Aug 2, 2016

An inelegant haiku

Being has meaning
If you can't sense it you are
In your own way, brah

Another New Game

Called, "Free Love"

First open the box. Set out the lovely pieces and the game board. Have a few sips of wine.

Then everyone who decided not to play the game shames the players until they close the box, set it on fire and pretend it never happened. 

A New Game

Called,  "What People Want"

in which the players walk up and down a long hallway

trying to make something

then as soon as they have anything

they throw it at another player

saying the game's catch-phrase

"Is this what you wanted?"

Points are awarded by style

and how much trash you create

Feb 29, 2016


It’s time to notice again
the air-
and the perfect weight
to each of your colours
how your shadows stick to the bone
tied, occupied, speaking for you

It’s not like lovers might say-
in the locking of eyes
but in the whole, and in each of us
how the light
stretches over cheeks and nose
flashing of hair and fingers
inseparable from the flux of objects that clothe us
following the undertow of singular movements
becoming plural
raising of glass, leaning in, looking over—

I’m in wonder again,
and so casually.

I’m miming the actions of a person talking
And some words do come out, I think
I’m trying to stay here
“in conversation”
Knowing if I sink from it, I will lose also
This other awareness
That has crept in, like pleasure
Like heat rising.

We cannot have a metaphysics
I’ve read over and over
That line, and know it to be true
and also useless.
Because nothing will stop this program
of translation:
how might I move each of you into
The pictorial
so— outside of, or in spite of
or perhaps parallel to?
your bodies.
I can’t have it.
but you are full, not finished, open.
The program runs on.

It is night.
Darkness isn’t empty
It’s the gestation of dawn and it’s familiar colours
But these are better.
They are the promise and the mind
of colours
the root and the world
as it created colours
And the best part is, friend:
They are us
Innocently (how have we managed that?)
Rolling haphazardly out of some communal nest
Rubbing our eyes at the first sign of sun
And banishing sleep

Let me say it another way, there are many angles in:
The colours you carry now
are somehow the accumulation, the full knowledge of what makes them.
They are not superficial to you
in this moment.
But they are equally fresh, as if their first sighting.

How y’all managed to do this
On a Sunday night, here
is a mystery, congrats!

Or we just say: it’s winter into spring
It’s earthlings, animals, it’s life.

Aug 31, 2015


Go to there
Do not speak, to me 
Make silently, do not speak
There, to me
Your eyes may gently
Linger on
The grit of the page
Linger on, a silence
Not dark
a vastness waits for us
A sustenance, In silence
We intuit 
We hope
We feel its rumble in our shaking knees
And we form strength in unspoken 
Unions of making

Jun 10, 2015

Does this riot gear make me look fat?

I found this great essay of a dadaist talking shit about painters...bear with me folks, or don't...but I got really excited by this last night:
    "Oh those dear fellows, Maurice Denis and Charles Guerin. What a kick in the ass I'd like to give them! Oh jumping Jesus Christ Almighty! How phony is the ideal of Maurice Denis. He paints women and children all naked amid nature, a thing that you simply do not see nowadays. To look at his'd think that children brought themselves up and that shoes could be resoled for nothing. How far we are from railway accidents: Maurice Denis ought to paint in heaven for he never heard of dinner-jackets and smelly feet. Not that I find it very bold to paint an acrobat or a man shitting; on the contrary, a rose executed with novelty seems much more demoniacal."
    "The chief thing that will be noted at the Salon is the place that has been assumed by intelligence among so-called artists. Let me say right at the start that in my opinion the first requirement for an artist is to know how to swim. I also feel that art, in the mysterious state corresponding to form in a wrestler, is situated more in the guts than in the brain, and that is why it exasperates me when, in the presence of a painting, I evoke the man and all I see is a head. Where are the legs, the spleen and the liver?
    That is why I fell nothing but disgust for a painting by a Chagall or Jackal, that shows you a man pouring kerosene into a cow's ass-hole, when even real madness does not appeal to me because it manifest only a brain, while genius is nothing but an extraordinary manifestation of the body.
     Henri Hayden. If I speak first of this painter, it is because Madame Cravan's hat went into the manufacture of his paintings. And manufactured it is indeed. Everything in it is out of place, muddy, crushed by the cerebral. I'd rather stay under water for two minutes than face to face with this painting: I should feel less suffocated. Values are arranged in it, to make a good impression, whereas in a work that issues from a vision the values are merely the colors of a luminous globe. The artist who sees the globe has no need to manipulate his values, which will always be false. Hayden has not seen the globe, for he has at least ten paintings on his canvas.
     A bit of good advice: take a few pills and purge your spirit; do a lot of fucking or better still go into rigorous training: when the girth of your arm measures nineteen inches, you'll at least be a brute, if you're gifted."   [Cravan, Arthur. "Arthur Cravan: Exhibition at the Independents." Dada, the Dada Painters and Poets: An Anthology. By Robert Motherwell. Boston: G.K. Hall, 1981. 5-7.]
     Arthur's said two things I've been unable to articulate: the importance of the whole body in painting (the anti-quip) and the essential quality of a vision. There's no reason to summarize further. However, it also brought into focus the desperate, narcissistic neediness that exists now...well, everywhere (because when do you read a contemporary writing like his?). Not to say that I want to cultivate being an asshole, I actually think I'd find that nearly impossible. Not only is it just against my nature, but I suffer from the same fear of confrontation that most people do: a fear that is probably more a fear of being wrong than it is a desire to be nice.
     Back to the point, I want to cultivate being an asshole at the right time because being nice in our culture means fuck-all anymore. Maybe we could drown all the actual assholes and teach all the nice people to say what they actually think. There, culture saved. It probably would because I bet most of the actual assholes are at the ground zero of planet destruction stroking their persian cats. What a lovely image. Oh wait, there is no ground zero for planet destruction anymore. Hyperobject
     To bring it back to peacefulness, if you confront me about something I've done that you don't like or understand maybe I can:
1.) shed some light on my motivations
2.) realize you have a point and change my thinking

Here's a video that speaks to this narcissism by artist Ryan Trecartin:

It will make you feel pretty dirty but there are some perfect moments in there.....I think worth sticking through for the whole thing.

Feb 4, 2015

VMFA Fellowship!

Well, I've been telling them for years... but the VMFA has finally concluded that I am, in addition to being a number one cheese deliverer and chicken tempura distributor, a professional painter!!

Since I do love a list...



2. While this photo was taken in Joe's adjacent studio, the temperature is the get the point
3. Holla